ramblin man

March 24, 2009

i never posted pics from san diego so here yall go. aidden is a little bugger, 100% pure energy. 


hmmpphh. what have i accomplished today? not much. after much waiting and waiting and a little bit o’ stress in the mix, the apartment was finally exterminated today. i threw away my loft bed, my mattress and some other junk yesterday. its a lot of money down the tubes but lets just put it this way…if bed bugs are in my yarn, ima flip a shit. i wont be getting any new furniture until i have a new place. if you have never had these creatures in your bed, be grateful. to say that the bites itch is an understatement. they have the ability to drive a fairly sane person completely mad. theyre fierce.

for some reason i have the following song stuck in my head…  some good ole allman bros…

Lord, I was born a ramblin man,
Tryin to make a livin and doin the best I can.
And when its time for leavin,
I hope youll understand,
That I was born a ramblin man.

Well my father was a gambler down in georgia,
He wound up on the wrong end of a gun.
And I was born in the back seat of a greyhound bus
Rollin down highway 41.

Im on my way to new orleans this mornin,
Leaving out of nashville, tennessee,
Theyre always having a good time down on the bayou,
Lord, them delta women think the world of me.

Lord, I was born a ramblin man,
Tryin to make a livin and doin the best I can.
And when its time for leavin,
I hope youll understand,
That I was born a ramblin man.

(it may or may not be related to the fact that the bed bug guy was telling me for a full half hour about his divorce/his crazy wife/his 2 year old/his 4 year old/the difficulty he is having finding a woman younger than 40 who doesnt want kids but wants to take care of his/the inner conflict he is having with himself for not fighting for full custody…..)

besides that these are my spring/summer plans and in no order…..

1.) wedding in texas- weekend of may 2, moderately-extremely nervous to meet the family

2.) marathon in buffalo- weekend of may 24, completely/totally unprepared. i just hope i dont mess up my knees permanently or something. life has seriously been getting in the way of my running for a while now.

3.) new apartment- lease is up july 1st, after this bed bug mess… i really cant wait.

4.) 1 year at the point – may 17, wheewww-eeee. its been a ride.

5.) maybe another visit with remoy to buffalo in april to meet my family if the monetary stuff doesnt get too big.

6.) machu pichu – weekend of june 4, CANT WAIT. Me, James, and one of my favorite people in the chorus. Perhaps we will his up the Nazca lines? 

7.) erik and emily’s wedding – weekend of june 12, its on long island… that means a lot of extended family in town. emu and matt will chill here for a week after so i am totally looking forward to that.


sierra update

March 9, 2009


horsey harry

October 16, 2008


First things first. The poster is brilliantbrilliantbrilliant. Its both striking and smart.

Secondly, I don’t mean to be on a vegan spiel but recently that seems to be my nitch. So, be warned but please read on.

I went and saw ‘Equus’ tonight with James after eating at Zen Palate. Good company, good eatins, good weather. (Rode the bike for the first time in a bit, that rain.. it makes me into one lazy blob…anyway beauteous fall NYC day.)

Don’t know Equus? Me neither until tonight and this is more or less my immediate reaction.

So, this ‘normal’ 17 year old boy blinds a bunch of horses and this is so incredibly horrific to people.  Yah, horses are pretty awesome, it seems pretty fucked up to me too. But the jury wants to put him in jail for life. The parents of this kid have individual break downs more or less because they are seen to be at fault by outsiders. I mean they raised a blinder of horses, right? Ehhm. GROSS.  But jail for life? That’s pretty intense considering the fact that this doesn’t even typically happen for gang rape or matters of this sort. Anyway, it was written in the 1970’s in England and based on a true story… how much I’m not sure but in any case we can assume that the people in the town where this took place reacted quite venomously.  The story is really dark and complex which makes it enjoyable. I’m sure its a good read too.  I’d like to give it a shot not so much because I like reading plays but you know I can be hard of hearing and I missed a lot in that theater foh shoh.  

I swear I didn’t only focus on the vegan thing throughout the one to two hour play. But I can’t help it when the focal point of the work was animal abuse. The suppressed sexuality is a whole other can of worms.

Animal abuse is FUCKED UP, right?  Most people will admit that they have a harder time seeing an animal in pain versus a human.  But its such a contradiction! Do you have any idea what kind of torture the chicken you go through before you eat them? Google ‘de-beaking’ if you want to know more but it is chopping off part of the birds beak so that they can’t peck each other since they live is flocks up to 80,000. According to John Robbins it ‘requires cutting through highly sensitive tissue, similar to the tender sensitive flesh under human fingernails and causes the animals severe pain.’  Remember slamming your fingers in the car door when you were a kid? I did that a lot it seems, always my thumb on the right hand. That shit SUCKS. The thought of chopping off a birds beak…. no pain reliever….nada… is plain ole disgusting.

AND that isn’t even the full story, not even close. Over half a million baby chicks (males that egg warehouses have no use for) are disposed of by being thrown into plastic bags to suffocate….everyday. Any other way may cost money so… profits profits profits.  Capitalism at its prime I tell ya! Think it a bit strange that a huge manufacturer of pencils and helicopters also invests in chicken? Nah, man. Its a profitable business!

My question is… is it because the horses had to suffer and were blinded rather than facing a ‘painless’ death that it is so disturbing to people? If you have the idea in your head that the animals you eat do not suffer relentlessly before making it to your plate… think again.  Even its just a horse thing… what about GELATIN?

Here are a few quotes from ‘Diet for a New America’ by John Robbins that help emphasize my point:

  • The way we treat animals is indicative of the way we treat out fellow humans.
  • A reliance on instinct is very different from a lack of ability to feel pain.
  • We have a very convenient and self-serving way of defining intelligence.

You don’t have to be an animal rights activist or even an animal lover to think that its fucked up.  Animals have a central nervous system they feel physical pain, when blinded for example. They also are capable of love and of GRIEF which is what catches the psychiatrist up. That’s all. Maybe a bit long winded but that’s more or less it. If you go on too long, people stop thinking your smart and you come off as a fanatic. No thanks.

Technical stuff about the play?

WELL….It was a bit weird to see Daniel Radcliffe in the role and to see him naked.  He has to be under loads of pressure to shed that Harry Potter skin and he…. tried pretty hard. I’m not trying to be critical, he was good. He just tried hard.  The role didn’t seem to come naturally to him. Whoever played the mother wasn’t such a good actress. Yes, she was a distressed ex-school teaching religion mum….. but eh. She was too desperate, her voice was too strained. Meh.


That psychiatrist played by the mean fat uncle in Harry Potter (Richard Griffiths)… he was ON POINT.

October 15, 2008



October 12, 2008

there are many reasons why i wanted to start this blog and for some reason in order to even give it out to people in my life or to make it public…. i feel like i need to write an intro of sorts although this ain’t blog post numero uno. 

1. i read, i dont write. thats pretty important. i dont want to be judged for the order of my words or my limited vocabulary. i know good writing or at least like to think that i do. i am not capable of that nor do i desire to be. 

2. i want to log the things i keep forgetting. eg. after watching a significant film or reading a book that has a strong impact on me… i want to remember details, not just the long term lingering effect it had on my subconscious.

3. i am starting to run. i couldn’t tell you why i stopped but its been a longtime coming.  i signed up for the buffalo marathon on may 23… maybe the 29? whatever. its a sunday. i need to get my focus back (and my memory, ha). running helps and i need a long term goal. not to mention how bad ass it is going to sound when i say i ran my first marathon at 22. need to train seriously, eh? 26.2 miles. KAAAZAM!

4. i knit (obviously) and want to log my projects with pics here. ravelry is good too but i’d rather have all this centralized in one place.

5. i need to vent. i am pretty angry at the world and its systems. i am prone to  thinking that i can make a small difference to make life easier in my immediate surrounding and pretty frequently i get kicked around for this.  i dont hate humanity, i just think we are corrupt as hell. if anything its my love for humanity that fuels my anger.  (obviously there are a select few who hear about all this ramblin’ too much… this is also to give their ear a rest. bless your hearts.) often its hard for me to articulate. seeing my words sometimes really helps me to figure out what i believe or what i am feeling in regards to the issues much bigger than me. please note:  i will flip flop, don’t judge. if you do, you are an asshole. 

6. i want to have a reference for things i find online and be able to come back to them easily.

7. i haven’t had my period in over a year. that is likely key factor in my wavering sanity and its not that i am trying to deliberately refuse help. i simply dont believe in western medicine anymore, its about a quick fix and has nothing to do with preventative care. most pharmaceuticals haven’t been tested properly and we have no idea what the long term effects are. i’m not judging you for taking them so long as you don’t judge me for refusing them. that is all. i have tried birth control, i won’t do it again. the women’s anatomy is pretty fucking complex and the only answer is the pill. i cannot accept that. so, i am constantly reading about alternative women’s health stuff. don’t worry boys, this has strong overlap with the politic rants i am prone to.

8. i am vegan and cook vegan food. i will post awesome pics of delicious food and try to make the world go veg. not realistic, drrr. but it would be nice to persuade at least a handful of folks that 1.) being vegan isn’t as hard as you think 2.) its better for you, the environment and animals 3.) its a way of being an activist everyday.   i probably have a more diverse diet than most and that i am pretty health conscious.

disclaimer: you don’t need as much protein as you believe. 10% of your calories…. that is it. and veggies have protein. i’m just fine i promise. you should be more concerned about FIBER, found only in plants.    and what about calcium? if your worried about my bones, dont be. calcium has nothing to do with it. (and if it did… veggies got em too and so does rice milk, etc.) i’m pretty sure that horses and gorillas have strong healthy bones and they don’t drink milk their entire lives…. much less from another species EVER in their lives… so yah. its a bit unnatural. you can’t argue otherwise.   anyway, strong bones are built by strong muscles. build up your muscles and your bones compensate. third world countries are just starting to get osteoporosis. its because they’re modernizing (aka sitting in offices) and eating more SAD (standard american diet). don’t mess with me on nutrition. i am not interested in what you think you know.

8. how is this different than lj? good question